perspective

i had a dream today that i grew wings and flew away
i saw the world from a new perspective
and i felt myself become disconnected
from what i knew i felt, and what i saw
and i saw beauty in it all.
and i saw the pain of a million people rise up in one
to make something beautiful.
and i saw a hand holding the world,
spinning it round with a simple word.
and i saw His feet spanning the galaxies
and my mind couldn't grasp just how small i was.
and i could feel the pain tearing through my chest
sink down inside me, becoming less and less.
and i knew it was there this horrible hurt i felt
but it was His pain too and how much more He groaned
for pain that i myself had never known,
and might never know because He hid it from me
(it was the agony He wanted no one to see).
and my heart was filled with inexpressible grief
coming from joy that longed to give Him relief.
but as He turned to me i hid in shame,
it was for me He took on all of my pain.
and i wanted to cry for the chasm inside
and i saw the world in His hand,
turning because of His greater plan.
and my soul felt blasted apart by the thought:
that He did it all for me and i hated Him for it.
but how could i hate Him for trying to make me understand
that He knew me, He loved me, He was holding my hand?
and every one of His words were spoken for me, and for you,
and for everyone who never knew and never wanted to believe:
that He was there, and that He cared, and there was no mystery.
what can i say to Him that might condemn
the Lord of all creation?
the Rock who provides me shelter- is the God of all the weather.
and with Him i will sit out this storm.
i had a dream today that i grew wings and flew away
i saw the world from a new perspective
and i felt myself become disconnected
from what i knew i felt and what i saw
and i saw beauty in it all.